|Yes, I am still the same person.
||[Sep. 23rd, 2004|03:59 pm]
|||||VNV Nation - Saviour||]|
So I guess I haven't really written in here for a long time. But I decided to write some things down that will pertain to certain individuals (who will remain unnamed, but they will know who they are) and hope this clears things up once and for all.
I am still the same person that I was two years ago. I am still Heather, I am still into pretty much the same things I was then, and I still worry about my friends and wish that I could spend more time doing fun things, and less studying and worrying about my family and grades. I don't know if I am more or less bitter and angry than I was at the time you met me, but I am definitely more honest and less patient now. If things seem they have changed, if our relationship seems as if it has died, think about it. I don't just spout meaningless words out of my ass - if I tell you I am still your friend, then I am still willing to be your friend. Don't go saying you think I don't like you anymore; it's an insult to me beyond what you're thinking. Just because I've been very busy doesn't mean I still don't think about you or care about you. I've offered to help you and spend time with you many times, and some of you accept and sulk the whole time, and some of you never accept and just whine that I hate you.
Furthermore, I just haven't even had a chance to talk to you since God knows when. I could call you up, sure, but you'd be rude to me and say that you were busy. I'd email you, but it sometimes takes me a very long time to get back to you, and then you'd think I hated you some more. I don't know how many times I'm going to have to press the point here that JUST BECAUSE I AM BUSY, DOESN'T MEAN I DON'T LIKE YOU. ><
I really don't have much more to say about this. I'm very upset with my situation with some of my friends. I wish I could fix it. But alas, I cannot. Friendship takes two people, and I guess you think that I am not there for you, so we just can't see each other anymore. So I'm leaving it here for now - I suppose I'll wait and see if things work themselves out.